InCoNsIsTeNt In EvEryThInG

Suddenly my life has been so inconsistent... Wierd eh....

My mathematics performance is more sucked than ever... What a waste, last year's maths teacher was a good one who knows how to explain everything... My current one gets my head cracked... He/She even forces us to get A in PMR... With a quality of that level, ain't an easy thing to accomplish...The problem is this year I'm more serious in studying but I was damn play-FOOL last year, what a waste... Now I also tak puas hati with our very own Tony Tan Ting Tong ever since that misunderstanding at tution... He gave a half-hearted apology, that's OK la... But I still love to play around especially joking about his brand new car LOL...

Another problem is friendship, since there's lots of backstabbing around the fellows around me, you can't satisfy everyone... At sometimes, you have a feeling that guy wants to break you to pieces but the next thing you know, he or she lends a helping hand... Still trying to bring the word unto them by setting up an example but who wants to follow a not-very - intelligent - foul - mouthed and lazy-bum joker... To those out there, this is the real me, I'm a failure to many!!! It's time to turn the tables... BUT HOW??? You come out with an answwer to that one you let me know...

Sometimes anger, hatred and unforgiveness lurks deep down inside, drooling for revenge and beating their as*es up, especially those racists who insult me, practice of eating pork and my religion.. But not all Malays are nasty, some are friendlier than some Chinese, no offense yea... Because I WAS always hammered by racial, a change is happening right in front of my eyes... As for my hatred etc, I better stop fueling it with angry metal songs...

I suddenly find out changing your mind from a lazy bum to a study freak is so tough... With all those procrastination and temptations, only a champ can withstand all these, but I'm not... I'm average... Yea, my English is top of my class but my BM teacher complains to me about why I'm good in English and gets B in Bahasa Malaysia... What's worse, I tend to leave Maths undone although it's my weakest subject... ARGGGHHHHH!!! why do I have to learn linear equations, algebra which I NEVER USE IN MY LIFE... I mean who does... Why do we have to learn about Malaysia, why can't we learn about SPARTA!!! THIS IS MADNESS!!! Hy isn't the education system different, like you study the stuff necessary for your dream job... It's not necessarily smart intellects are rich. This is one of the arguements I had with Tan Ting Tong... Slash and Tom Morello who dropped out of high school are earning millions playing guitar and lecturers still need to control their spendings... Typical Tan Ting Tong, he must have it his way... WHY LA???

Haiz.. Life ain't easy, there are many questions we will ask The Lord but we don't see the answer immediately and leaving us with doubts sometimes but the show must roll on... By the way, my faith has been inconsistent too...